“Then the kingdom of heaven will be like this. Ten bridesmaids took their lamps and went to meet the bridegroom. Five of them were foolish, and five were wise.” Matthew 25:1-2 NRSV
Greetings, Fremont Family:
This morning, I find that I don’t have a lot of words. Instead, I have a lot of feelings. What about you? Today, would it be okay if I simply shared some of what I am feeling with you? Thank you for that permission.
First, I find myself feeling grief. We don’t know who the next President of the United States will be. But, we do know that there was a sizable portion of the population of our nation who voted for someone who represents the ideology of white supremacy. This truth continues to make me very sad. I wanted a landslide. I wanted a clear denunciation of the evil of the past four years. I wanted a mandate for a future that represents full liberation for all people. Instead, we woke to a result “too close to call.” That fact makes me want to weep.
Second, I find myself feeling gratitude. Really! Since January of 2019, I have been actively doing the work of anti-racism. That means that I while I feel deep sadness. I also feel recognition. I am not surprised by what has happed, not shocked or disillusioned. I am humbled. I see how deeply the myth and power of white supremacy grips our nation, and how it has shaped even me. That painful recognition feels like the beginning of wisdom. It feels like truth that will one day set us free.
Finally, I am feeling hope. Yes, hope! As Christians, we have always been a people whose story of resurrection goes right through crucifixion. We crucified the Lord of Glory, and if we did it then, we will do it now. Yet, death and darkness never have the last word. This Sunday, Jesus will tell us another parable. The story is about a bridegroom who is on his way to the wedding feast. In other words, life and liberation ARE coming. Some will be ready, others will not. I plan to be ready. What about you?
Today, be gentle with yourself. Allow yourself to feel what you are feeling. Feel free to call or email me and share what you are feeling. I would consider it an honor. AND, as I mentioned several weeks ago in my sermon, I plan to be in the sanctuary today, from 1-3pm to light a candle and to pray. Join me, if you can, for some silence, some reflection and some peace.
I love you all. Pastor Erin
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